2 Cor 4:8

2 Cor 4: 8 'We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair..'

Pastor preached on the message to Man today,and it's was very good message for me.Something that really bring me and make me realize of some of the things i've done in the past...and now,it's really time for me to get things right,and rise up for the Lord.

Looking back,i think there are a lot of things which i need to work on in my life.My peers all have rise up,except me,and i felt that why it's so unfair to me,why God promote the rest and not me?Recently,I fasted a lot,and really think through a lot,and it's a very very hard period for me,and God really mould me during this period,and i really felt much tougher time than i used to previously.I felt like giving up,and that's it.. i'm not going to back to church,i just want to be alone,i wanna be myself,someone that always free from all the pressing by leaders,and by members.I want to be left alone... and even if ppl start to show concern abt me,they are just concern about me backsliding... the thoughts of all these,really crushed me down at times.. but yet,everytime,God is the one that lift me up again and again,from time to time..

'Hati Hamba',a song that i love to sing so much recently.. really inspire me and encourage me.I played the song for cell group on friday,and having fast and pray for the past one week,i really felt the anointing in me to lift up the spirit of this song.Indeed,God did a wonderful work through me,and many of my members were very touched by the worship,and it was one of the most awesome worship we had.God's presence was so tangible,and the members were blessed by the worship,and as a guitarist,i'm very much encouraged too.

Pastor Tan preached a very good message.Indeed,at times i do feel very much squeezed by the leaders,either ministry,or cell group leader... being in between the members,it's kinda of hard for me.Ministry,is where i felt very much called to,and i really wanting to rise up there,yet there are so many things which i felt so much squeeze by the leaders.Cell group,being the main coordinator,have to stuck in between the connect group leaders,and the cell group leader,and sometimes,even members... I felt like so angry,pek cek at times.. but yet,what can i do,but to swallow my pride,and eat it? Who can really understand the pressure i'm going through,seems i don't do a lot,but i felt i also need personal time.I'm a human being too,and can get tired too.

Yet the word of season come to me...

2 Cor 4:8 'We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair'

God is indeed there for me.. i'm not crushed,as the word says.. i will be even more stronger(which i'm trying to...)

Greater is He who is in ME,than He who is in the world. God is good. Amen!

Breakthrough?

Have been praying and fasting for the past 2 weeks...

Breakthrough,i need a breakthrough... How can?

Sometimes it's just getting more and more tiring of the things i'm doing. People around me will tell me it's because i'm spiritually drained.. and i need a break.. whereas break is something not the solution to what i'm facing now.

Jesus said,'These things cannot be done except through praying and fasting.."

I shall do it.

Temptations...

I've been fasting for the past 3 days. Today will be the last day.

As you fast,devil come and tempt you. I'm encountering it now,and it's very intense.As the church is coming to an end of our 21 days 1hour prayer,these few days the attack is much more vivid.It's getting worse in me,and i felt very much low and down at a point of time.I've done some silly things,and make a lot of silly thoughts.Though my leader felt i'm handling well,at a point of time,i still feel i'm giving too much thoughts.

Thoughts of giving up everything comes,and wanting to give up all my positions in the church.However,the articles that i've been reading,really encourages me,and i felt much better each day.

Hopefully things will be fine after i end my fast tonight,and tomorrow will be my service day.It will be the last day of our prayer,and of course,a day to serve the Lord!

Busy,Busy,More BUSY.

Getting more busy with work... I think it's good.

I learn something,and have been moving from place to place. This really boast my confidence,and i think God is really giving me a lot of opportunities to prove myself in work.

I shall work hard.

The calling is getting diverted recently,on whether i should change ministry or not... I'm confused...

But i will let God do the control,and lead me.Whether which ministy i've decided.. God is still the one I'll be serving...

Revelation

I went for the meeting with Rev Robb Thompson on tuesday night. Didn't get a good chance to hear the word,as i was behind the curtain most of the time. It was quite distracting for me,as the musicians and ushers were walking to and fro the area.

I went up the B2 to wait for Pastor Tan.On my way up,Pastor Yong came in.He look at me,and smile.

'How old are you? ' Pastor Yong asked.

'28 this year,Pastor..' I replied.

'Hmmm... you need to work out...' Pastor Yong said coolly.

Wow... time to work out and go on fitness!

Love People,Love God

How true these words are.

'If we cannot love the people whom we see,how can we love God,whom we cannot see?'

Sometimes we do not know how to appreciate the people around us,and always like to take each other for granted.Human are generally a bit selfish,and there are times unknowingly,take advantage of the other party.

I must learn how to love the people more too,as it's my desire to rise up as a leader this year.Though i'm half step there,and always training to be one,yet I know I can never reach that level,if I don't know how to love people more.

God,stretch my capacity!

Logan, the Sky Angel Cowboy

I'm so touched by this.





How powerful the words that the boy speak,though short and simple,yet i almost teared when i heard if over and over again.

God is always understanding.

Servanthood

Pastor had been preaching on servanthood last sat. I missed a great message.It would be a word of season for me,as i really hunger and thirst for it.

I shall focus on serving the Lord from now.As He said,Seek first the kingdom of God,and all things shall be added unto you. Well,seeking and serving Him first in my life,let me not be Lot's wife,and remember the past.. but i shall move forward.

God is always understanding,always...

It hurts.

It hurts.. when u face something unexpected.

Even if you are a guy,people will though guys are usually stronger.

But to me,it's never a case,cos we are human,and we have feelings.

What can we do then? Nothing,except pray.

Thank God

Things may not be doing well in me.

But i know God has been helping me all these while. Seems to ppl i'm fine,and happy go lucky,but deep inside of me,who can feel it?

God sees it,God knows it,I will let God heal it.

Those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.
They shall mount wings like eagle.
They shall run and not be weary.
They shall walk and not faint.

If God didn't prepare for me,i would have fall.Thank God for Him.