Slimming Down...

I've slim down by 4kg! Wow.. in a time of 2 weeks.

Target 70kg. And also to pass my IPPT. I think it's possible. With the rate i am going,running is not an issue anymore.I have condition my body to running.. and it's feeling so good,that i won't pant when running long distance.Shall continue my running..

Slimming Session

My friends have been telling me,i slim down a bit recently.. maybe due to fasting,and my consistent running..

Reason for me to run?

All thanks to my soccer Manager,Miss Robina.

Why? Cos he didn't played me during one of the matches.. and knowing that my fitness doesn't allow me to run alot.. i only managed to play 2 mins of the game...(Never even touch the ball...)

From that day onwards.. i am determine to keep running. Run as much as i can.. to fight back my 1st Team place.

I can do it!

2 Cor 4:8

2 Cor 4: 8 'We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair..'

Pastor preached on the message to Man today,and it's was very good message for me.Something that really bring me and make me realize of some of the things i've done in the past...and now,it's really time for me to get things right,and rise up for the Lord.

Looking back,i think there are a lot of things which i need to work on in my life.My peers all have rise up,except me,and i felt that why it's so unfair to me,why God promote the rest and not me?Recently,I fasted a lot,and really think through a lot,and it's a very very hard period for me,and God really mould me during this period,and i really felt much tougher time than i used to previously.I felt like giving up,and that's it.. i'm not going to back to church,i just want to be alone,i wanna be myself,someone that always free from all the pressing by leaders,and by members.I want to be left alone... and even if ppl start to show concern abt me,they are just concern about me backsliding... the thoughts of all these,really crushed me down at times.. but yet,everytime,God is the one that lift me up again and again,from time to time..

'Hati Hamba',a song that i love to sing so much recently.. really inspire me and encourage me.I played the song for cell group on friday,and having fast and pray for the past one week,i really felt the anointing in me to lift up the spirit of this song.Indeed,God did a wonderful work through me,and many of my members were very touched by the worship,and it was one of the most awesome worship we had.God's presence was so tangible,and the members were blessed by the worship,and as a guitarist,i'm very much encouraged too.

Pastor Tan preached a very good message.Indeed,at times i do feel very much squeezed by the leaders,either ministry,or cell group leader... being in between the members,it's kinda of hard for me.Ministry,is where i felt very much called to,and i really wanting to rise up there,yet there are so many things which i felt so much squeeze by the leaders.Cell group,being the main coordinator,have to stuck in between the connect group leaders,and the cell group leader,and sometimes,even members... I felt like so angry,pek cek at times.. but yet,what can i do,but to swallow my pride,and eat it? Who can really understand the pressure i'm going through,seems i don't do a lot,but i felt i also need personal time.I'm a human being too,and can get tired too.

Yet the word of season come to me...

2 Cor 4:8 'We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair'

God is indeed there for me.. i'm not crushed,as the word says.. i will be even more stronger(which i'm trying to...)

Greater is He who is in ME,than He who is in the world. God is good. Amen!

Breakthrough?

Have been praying and fasting for the past 2 weeks...

Breakthrough,i need a breakthrough... How can?

Sometimes it's just getting more and more tiring of the things i'm doing. People around me will tell me it's because i'm spiritually drained.. and i need a break.. whereas break is something not the solution to what i'm facing now.

Jesus said,'These things cannot be done except through praying and fasting.."

I shall do it.

Temptations...

I've been fasting for the past 3 days. Today will be the last day.

As you fast,devil come and tempt you. I'm encountering it now,and it's very intense.As the church is coming to an end of our 21 days 1hour prayer,these few days the attack is much more vivid.It's getting worse in me,and i felt very much low and down at a point of time.I've done some silly things,and make a lot of silly thoughts.Though my leader felt i'm handling well,at a point of time,i still feel i'm giving too much thoughts.

Thoughts of giving up everything comes,and wanting to give up all my positions in the church.However,the articles that i've been reading,really encourages me,and i felt much better each day.

Hopefully things will be fine after i end my fast tonight,and tomorrow will be my service day.It will be the last day of our prayer,and of course,a day to serve the Lord!

Busy,Busy,More BUSY.

Getting more busy with work... I think it's good.

I learn something,and have been moving from place to place. This really boast my confidence,and i think God is really giving me a lot of opportunities to prove myself in work.

I shall work hard.

The calling is getting diverted recently,on whether i should change ministry or not... I'm confused...

But i will let God do the control,and lead me.Whether which ministy i've decided.. God is still the one I'll be serving...

Revelation

I went for the meeting with Rev Robb Thompson on tuesday night. Didn't get a good chance to hear the word,as i was behind the curtain most of the time. It was quite distracting for me,as the musicians and ushers were walking to and fro the area.

I went up the B2 to wait for Pastor Tan.On my way up,Pastor Yong came in.He look at me,and smile.

'How old are you? ' Pastor Yong asked.

'28 this year,Pastor..' I replied.

'Hmmm... you need to work out...' Pastor Yong said coolly.

Wow... time to work out and go on fitness!